Aloneness

My aloneness

inspires me,

transfixes me,

cripples me,

liberates me.

I have traveled this whole life with him.

He doesn’t let me go,

or let me be.

 

He loves me to distraction.

I know its a fatal attraction.

At tiny moments,

I think,

what if I run away.

Can I?

But he’s my shadow,

the only safety shade I know.

I may be a step ahead,

but he is always behind me.

Sometimes I wish

he had another lover,

and I could go under cover,

only to discover,

his morbid power,

over my emotional tower.